Groundhog Days!! Sunday, August 5th, 2007

Let’s continue with yesterday’s thought process for the moment.
I am so sick and tired of experiencing my own “Groundhog Day”. Let’s start at the end of the day (which doesn’t really matter, since it repeats itself, so one can start anywhere, right?).
So at the end of the day (which ended up being a “failure”) I hear myself saying: “Tomorrow, I will do better tomorrow”. Tomorrow comes, and it starts out ok. Nothing out of the ordinary, I am thinking this is going well. I am doing good with drinking my water, I do my other exercises, I eat pretty good. BUT then it starts, a few cookies after a normal meal (that’s ok, I say to myself), then later I do ok again, but all the sudden: “where are the nuts, where are the sweets, where is all the junk?? “
My calories had been great till that point and then, slam, I ruin it all in just a few minutes. So here I go again: “tomorrow I will do better!”
I really hate it. My head tells me try this, do that. Unfortunately the rest doesn’t follow. Somehow the brain has no control, whatsoever, over it’s own body. I thought the brain was the boss. I thought it tells the body what to do. So, why is it that when I am knowing all the good things I should be doing, the brain fails to communicate this with the rest of the body???
Well, the mind and the brain are obviously two different entities. My thoughts are not of any matter (nor do they seem to matter, it seems) so I guess there is no connection between the two. Or is there? There must be, right? Don’t “they” say, the body and the mind are connected?
If that’s so, and I think it is, there must be a major disconnect going on somewhere within myself.
Now I wonder how badly the damage is? Is it just a road block or a detour? Has major damage occurred and will I be able to fix it? Has the road closed down for good or is it just temporarily? Do I need to start working on building a new pathway?
I don’t know!! I have no clue! How could I find out? This really sucks! It’s like sitting in a traffic jam for hours due to a toxic spill on the freeway. I can’t turn around and take a different route, nor can I go forward, because it won’t let me until I figured out how to clean up the mess.
Well, it’s not the first time the connection between body and mind has been interrupted. Oh no, it’s been happening a lot. I always seem to get out of it sooner or later (it has taken as long as a few years before as far as I can recall and other times only a few weeks or even days). Let’s just hope it’s going to be sooner, because I REALLY don’t like being stuck. You see that’s why I don’t like going for a ride in a car for very long either, I just like to get from point A to B as fast as possible.
Now what does this tell me?? I know, I know!! It’s a whole other topic in itselfJ

Did a 60 minute walk around the house, plus I walked down the hill to the mailbox with Jackson earlier today. I am happy with that!
Not so happy about the 6 cookies I had after lunchL .
working on glass #15 H2O and i probably stop by 5pm. We are going to the movies, so ....:)
Well, we decided not to go. It’s so nice outside, we rather enjoy sitting outside this evening instead of in a movie theatre.
Made dinner and I served it outside on the new little deckJ
It’s 11pm and all I have been thinking about is what I can stuff myself with. I have to keep in mind that the calories today are really good right now, much lower than the past few day.
If I can make it through the night without another snack I will face the scale tomorrow. I know there can’t be much of loss (probably nothing), but I sure would feel much better if I can win this small battle tonight.

13267 Steps/ 6.28 Miles
6975 Aerobic steps / 62 minutes
Alternate Activity: none
3 sets 50 crunches (150)
3 sets 25 both sides obliques (150)
3 sets 25 reversed (75)
3 sets 15 squads
Reversed leg raise: 3 sets 15
Free weights: 3 sets 15 Biceps/Triceps/Shoulders/Back
Calories burned: 539
Calories consumed: 1156
H2O: 21 glasses
Goals accomplished today: yes +no
Glucosamine: yes
Today I am thankful for: cooler temperatures