Friday, July 13th, 2007

Edited Saturday morning : Let’s call this my day off for this week!! I did nothing really! No walk no outside work, nothing! It just was one of those sucky days!!
First meal 11:45 am: 86 calories
1:35pm: 453 calories
2:30pm Licorice. (420)Why is it in the house? Because I had a weak moment yesterday while shopping. THAT’s Why!!
5:30pm just woke up from a nap and I feel like crap!!. Why did I even lie down in the first place. And then for so long? It really doesn’t help my getting to bed earlier. Now I am going to be up into the wee hours again.
What’s for dinner? I have no idea, probably won’t be anything good.
I am finding myself on a rocky road (why do I think ice ream??) I am doing everything the opposites of what I am supposed be doing. Oye! Why can’t the good streaks last forever?? I don’t like the feeling of being in this “battle mode” with myself. I do one thing “wrong” and it ‘s being followed by another, very quickly. One bad choice after another. I wanna be good, I really do!

Arrrgh, DH just asked if we just want to get a pizza for dinner! I just want to scream at him! I know he means well, but unfortunately he doesn’t think. He really believes he is doing me a favor by me not having to cook (not that I have to). I am frustrated and I need to change the way I feel right now. Otherwise it will turn into a stupid argument.

Problem solved. Asked him if he would like some spaghetti and meatballs, which I was pretty sure he would love to have. And this is one of my easiest meals to make for him. Plus, I knew I could stay away from it. While I made regular pasta for him I made some whole wheat pasta for myself so I could have some later. I knew I’d get hungry eventually.

I added a big bowl of organic mixed green lettuce for him and voila he was happy and I was, tooJ .
It’s 8pm and I just finished making a pasta salad for myself which I will probably have within the next ½ hour. 1 serv. Pasta/garbanzo beans, kidney beans, steam broccoli, roasted peppers/ onions. I wish I had some cilantroL . But this should do the trick, no meat, but the pasta is fairly high in protein and so are the beans. I should also be satisfied with the “carby” tasting/looking/feeling dish.
That’s what I carve, CARBS!! And junk!!
8:15pm dinner (335)
9pm: 2 skinny cow ice ream sandwiches (300)
And I am it done yet!! I just know it!! ARRGGGHH and I still have to do ABS & SQUADS!!
Edited next morning: Well, it turned out I didn’t eat more, went to bed by 10pm. Which in some ways was a big mistake, because all I did was toss and turn. I wasn’t tired enough! I was up 5 times, so needless to say

14000 Steps/ 6.62 Miles
2865 Aerobic steps/ miles/ 27 minutes
560 Calories burned
1593 Calories consumed