Changes!!!?????

First: I finally figured out where I needed to go to change my settings. Anyone can respond now!!!

We are approaching day three and no downs to speak of. Let’s hope it stays this way. The bitch has not arrived yet and I prepared for anything. I hope DH is too. He will be coming off a two day shift . I really hope I can be nice. Sure, it is easy to be pleasant when ya do not have anyone to be a bitchy to. However, I noticed our phone conversation were non-confrontational. That is a good , right? I will try andbkeep an eye on myself and focus on happy thoughts. (Darn, just thinking about how much I must hurt him sometimes is really upsetting.).

Before I forget, I would like to say, “THANK YOU” to everyone responding and giving me some reassurance. Knowing that I am not alone really helps. And it’s really nice to “see” some friendly faces from the IVF board. I am still amazed about how one can connect to others without having personally met.

Then there are my real life almost non-exciting friends. This list has become very slim. I think having moved away from the East Bay made it very hard to keep up with the few friends I had to start with. Now, it involves at least a two ½-hour drive to get to see any of them. Coming over for a cup of coffee and ending up staying all evening just doesn’t happen anymore, unless we plan an overnight visit.

This is not really, what bugs me though, it is more the flaking out on and the minimal keeping in touch part.
Maybe I am super sensitive, but here is a short version of what has been happening recently.

Short version: We kind of made plans for my friend her daughter and maybe her daughter’s friend to come and visit Thanksgiving week (before TG). So we e-mailed: ( she responded after I send links to our home project site)

11/07 HER: Amazing - you 2 soo know how to do this home renovating w/a BANG!! Hey - watcha doing Thanksgiving week?? XXX & I and some friends are going shopping Monday in SF, but Tuesday would be wonderful. Maybe Sara could bring her friend XXXX & the girls can play & play w/the dogs while we do girly chit chat?? I am hoping to be off until after the holidays & would love to spend some time w/you - XXX & I both miss you!! I can bore you w/guy details. Heehee!!

11/08 ME: Sounds like a great idea. Let's do that. This way DH gets to "visit" with you for a while. He'll be working Wed/Thur and maybe Fri. So no Thanksgiving at our house this year:(:(
And as always you know you can stay overnight. The girls can use the bunks and you can sleep in the other room.

She never responded back, so me being meJ I send her this e-mail

11/22 ME: Tuesday has come and gone and no XXX and XXX:(:( sooooo sad. Maybe another day??
I'll be cooking dinner at the firehouse tomorrow. So I need to get cracking and prepping:)
Have a wonderful Thanksgiving!

(((BIG HUG))) to you both



So finally I get an e-mail back

11/27 HER: Cooking @ the firehouse - have fun!!


WHAT THE F@#@$!! Call me sensitive, but this really pissed me off. This was Monday after TG. And she responds to it as if Thanksgiving is still going to happen. Is there so much going on in her life? Her response did not make any sense. This pretty much tells me I am only an afterthought in her life, if that.

OK, I admit I expected somewhat of an apology for not getting back at me and leaving me hanging like this. Did I mention that this was not the first time this has happened, besides her never showing up on time and I mean never!!

I think we may be approaching the end of this friendship. Kinda sad, because she is a wonderful person (minus those flaws). Unfortunately she is a lot like so many other people; full of good intentions, but never following through.

I am tired of hearing “OH yeah, lets do this” and nothing ever comes of it.

I will b!%!^@ about this and some other things at a later time.

DH will be home soon and I would like to start baking his favorite cookies before he gets here. I also managed to put up most of the x-mas decoration. I have a fire going, and a x-mas CD blasting. So, when he comes home the house is all x-masy and smells yummy.

I am already in a better moodJJ

Maybe I should change the header of my blogg from “Ce sont les jours ce ma vie” (has anyone figured out what this meansJ?) to “These are the things that bother me in my life”. Or maybe “The Bitching Place to be”?